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11月14日 myselfSo Impossible to think me without ski and its cold and Great Feeling inside me.
I see my old photographs and i missing my white days on the Tops of Alps and everyting they made around me by its weather.
I Have not choise and i am in the corner like a boxer. i must get away from there... 11月5日 feelingI wanna thank to my Laptop for its daily work by many hours on.
I do not know what thinking about most people around me. Time runs and my oppurtinities are less.
I am a man now with all his needs and mind.
i m Tired to surf on net and search new job, tired to be positive...
Maybe a good Light from Far Land shows me the right way. i need it, but it is so far and no flight, could help me. Maybe this Light is change my Life... 11月2日 myselfFeel so good walking on the street in the night with my black scarf and cold + wind.
On my window a new gift from the life. i have made it for see stars and i have found the Moon by its view and its light on my bed... rainThe Rain outide shows me how my winter is comes soon... 10月28日 MassimilianoHere once again. here with Coldplay and their "Violet Hill". I like this song for the its words. Now my winter is near and a timid sun is still in the sky. I love so much the winter season and by it i can feel myself better...
i had so many things to type but now time is passed and i don't feeling so strong it like 1st time i felt.. sorry...
my old labtop is still works and its HD is full of memory!! i should thank the machine and the NET for their support of spend my time by research job, contact friends, know news and type here on window spaces with all of you!!
Now Dido plays.
I was sick for 2-3days but i went to job in any case because you know my worse side of no contract. i am not unhappy because there are people at worse situations than mine. i can pay all my costs every month and respect every date of payment. this thank to ME. who knows me, understand the meanining by "ME".
Try to entry into Solar' s Job and found finally a Permanent Job and continue to waiter as Extra. I do not want be rich, just livin a good life with a good person by my side and feeling all good things of this great words by sun, moon, montains, beaches, fields, seas, oceans, dinners, lunches, breakfasts, music, sports etc etc.
at the moment i do not live like i want for mself because i spend most of my time at job. People around me do not supply my personal friendship's request as FRIENDS. Most of them are so simple, selfish and unwilling to see beyond ...
If i should select everyone of them with right target of adult person i will be alone...
My Home needs some flower, but i am worry to kill it by my no permanent stayment inside and then, most of time is dark in the room ( for repair the colour of furniture). but i will buy some flower for the home when i can and when the room can be lighter then now...
Now i think to my Dog Ira and how i miss it and how one dog is the best friend of us! i'd love to have one more like Ira or Golden Retriver...
close my eyes and immaging IRA'S perfurm and all SENSATIONS of the Alps by its cold...
Take care and thank you for read my post on my site...
ps Depeche Mode at Bologna on 25th November. Can i miss he show? I AM GOING TO BE THERE...
10月15日 Night or dayIts 05.00am and stand up from my bed and unable to sleeping. I don't know if say good mornig or good night. Silance around me but soon will be a timid rumors by car's labors's first sheet of the day. And i am still without a job. i will thank to my parents. what can i do able to do, without their support? 10月6日 TIMENO TIME FOR MYSELF LIKE BEFORE. I UNDERSTAND WHY BUT AT THE MOMENT I HAVE NO CHOISE OR DIFFERENT WAY. I AM STILL WAITING THE SAME MEET... I DO MY BEST ALWAYS. I DO NOT KNOW, IF I WILL ABLE TO SKIING LIKE BEFORE BY SAME FEEL.
NO WORKING TODAY BY NOT REQUESTES.IS IT GOOD? NO IT ISN'T... 9月29日 ALIVE AGAINI AM STILL FOR MYSELF. WAITING MY WHITE ALPS KEEPS ME BY ITS HOT COLD ARMS...
I AM HERE AND WAITING THEM... 9月20日 i know whyOne of last summer days is happening today.
sun but and its right power by its 22-23°C. in the evening or night a timid cold air when i put my hand outside from my window's car.
My winter is shouts by all its recalls and i hope to be able to live in its part like the past on my snow. I thought i disepear so a lot of my time by hard in general, but my condition has moved me on the corner. i have no choise.
last night thruth my guest on the tables my ex collegues about 20 years ago. i was happy not for met them but because was like a simulation of what i really need about job. i felt so weel because i thought to have a permanent ob ( by them and my past) and do this extra extra job. well, i right condition to living without worry.
when the party was over, my happy was too. everything was under my knowledge.
i need the same, and i feel why i was born for once time more...
Try to turn my life's page at right. crossing the fingers...
winterLong time away from Net and you all. I am very sorry.
Outside is raining softly: its seams when my snow falls from the grey sky. My winter is almost calls its arrives. I supported my no holiday very well...
Tired by the same things.
In any case, i am well and do not worry about me. thank you for all your text on phone!!
Waiting something in late to became into truth... 8月21日 HAIRI Cut my hair short. The hairdresser understood how made it. Next time, should be next March 2010. All depends of Job... 8月18日 WANNAI HAVE TO GET THE BALANCE RIGHT IN MYSELF AND BACK MY SUOL ABOUT 20 DAYS AGO...I MUST DO IT.
And NOW, Total detoxification... 8月11日 the true. For now...It is passed so Long Time and i think that its time for my opportunity. Maybe i have to resolve something inside me. maybe i never do it and i will be like that for all my life. Please, do not ask me what i posted. it is my only way for my Disampointed of my privatelife.
Job is still late and i am waiting it on September.
I have to thank once my Park because helps me by my run inside it and i love to see myself tired and sweat...
Just watched my old albums here and i saw how the Alps gave me good time and didn't let me to think to my sad condition.
In anycase today i see once again how i was born to become two and NOT one like now...
Today i chated for 1t time with Angy and i met a new Good person last week.
a bit confusion in general. but maybe it is not my time.
after 13 years and Half, is so hard accept my condition...
sport helps me once...
take care
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